In time of Unsure

In time of unsure, where my heart seems to be blocked by 'maybe', undetermined circumstances and so much unconfirmed possibilities..

I..

Come to the Father and prayed a simple prayer:

"Lord, if this is Your will, then have it Your way..Amen.."

..and with all my faith, I know that God will make a way.

Yesus Berjalan di Atas Air

Sesudah itu, Yesus segera memerintahkan murid-murid-Nya naik ke perahu dan mendahului-Nya ke seberang, sementara itu Ia menyuruh orang banyak pulang.

Dan setelah orang banyak itu disuruh-Nya pulang, Yesus naik ke atas bukit untuk berdoa seorang diri. Ketika hari sudah malam, Ia sendirian di situ.

Perahu murid-murid-Nya sudah beberapa mil jauhnya dari pantai dan diombang-ambingkan gelombang, karena angin sakal.

Kira-kira jam tiga malam datanglah Yesus kepada mereka berjalan di atas air.

Ketika murid-murid-Nya melihat Dia berjalan di atas air, mereka terkejut dan berseru: "Itu hantu!", lalu berteriak-teriak karena takut.

Tetapi Yesus berkata kepada mereka: "Tenanglah! Aku ini, jangan takut!"

Lalu Petrus berseru dan menjawab Dia: "Tuhan, apabila Engkau itu, suruhlah aku datang kepada-Mu berjalan di atas air."

Kata Yesus: "Datanglah!" Maka Petrus turun dari perahu dan berjalan di atas air mendapatkan Yesus.

Tetapi ketika dirasanya tiupan angin, takutlah ia dan mulai tenggelam lalu berteriak: "Tuhan, tolonglah aku!"

Segera Yesus mengulurkan tangan-Nya, memegang dia dan berkata: "Hai orang yang kurang percaya, mengapa engkau bimbang?"

Lalu mereka naik ke perahu dan angin pun redalah.

Dan orang-orang yang ada di perahu menyembah Dia, katanya: "Sesungguhnya Engkau Anak Allah."

Matius 14:22-33

Daripada pembacaan firman di atas, apakah yang dapat saya terapkan dalam hidup saya?

Pertama, Yesus melakukan mujizat sekali lagi selepas memberi makan lima ribu orang dengan berjalan di atas air.

Yesus menyuruh murid-murid-Nya mendahului Dia lalu pergi ke satu bukit untuk berdoa kepada Bapa. Hari sudah lewat dan angin sakal juga bertiup, mengapa Yesus tetap pergi kepada murid-murid-Nya?

Mengapa? Saya menemukan 3 jawapan iaitu:

1. Perahu murid-Nya sudah jauh

2. Perahu tersebut diombang-ambing angin

Tetapi yang terutama dari semua itu adalah;

3. Yesus mengasihi murid-Nya

Yesus kan boleh saja menunggu sehingga pagi dan berlayar pada waktu siang bila keadaan lebih selamat. Tetapi Yesus tidak melakukan itu. Yesus mengasihi murid-Nya. Sekiranya Dia membiarkan sahaja, mungkin perahu itu akan tenggelam dan murid-murid-Nya mungkin akan lemas disebabkan angin tersebut.

Ketika murid-murid-Nya melihat Yesus berjalan di atas air, murid-murid-Nya menjadi takut lalu Yesus berkata "Tenanglah". Wah, rupanya saya boleh 'apply' firman ini dalam hidup saya. Ketika saya mengalami kebimbangan, saya boleh datang kepada Yesus dan mengalami ketenangan. Hal ini sudah seringkali berlaku dalam hidup saya. Asal saya percaya bahawa Yesus akan memberi jalan kepada saya, saya mendapat sebuah sukacita dalam hati, padahal saya 'is yet to face the future'. Akhirnya, ya, Yesus benar-benar membantu saya, membuka jalan bagi saya sehingga semua perkara dapat ku tanggung di dalam Dia yang memberi kekuatan kepadaku. =)

Petrus meminta untuk datang kepada-Nya. Lalu Petrus berjalan di atas air. Bagaimana saya boleh aplikasikan 'berjalan atas air' ini dalam hidup? Let's say berjalan atas air itu sepertinya berjalan dalam hidup yang nampak mustahil untuk dihadapi. Yesus kan ada untuk membantu, serahkan sahaja kepada Dia..tetapi orang yang kurang percaya masih takut akan badai hidup (angin yang bertiup) sehingga hanya sedikit sahaja sudah menggentarkan diri.

Apabila Yesus naik ke atas perahu, angin pun reda.

Bila Yesus menjadi kepala atas hidup kita maka semuanya akan menjadi indah, akan menjadi tenang dan damai. Hal ini sangat saya benarkan sebab ianya bukan lagi fakta melainkan kenyataan yang sudah berlaku dalam hidup saya sendiri.

SESUNGGUHNYA YESUS ADALAH ANAK ALLAH! AMIN!

Satu hal yang penting juga daripada petikan firman ini ialah, Yesus berdoa kepada Bapa sebelum Dia berjalan di atas air. Renungkanlah.

Tuhan memberkati! =)

Mencari Tuhan

Sesiapa yang mencari kebenaran (hal-hal Syurgawi) akan diberikan jawapan atas segalanya.

Matius 6:33 Tetapi carilah dahulu kerajaan Allah dan kebenarannya maka semuanya itu akan ditambahkan padam

Hal kerajaan Syurga adalah seperti yang tertulis dalam Matius di mana Yesus memberikan perumpamaan kepada ramai orang.

Kita adalah gandum yang siap dituai, tetapi iblis datang dan membibitkan kejahatan dalam manusia sehingga tumbuh menjadi lalang. Apakah kegunaan lalang? Tidak boleh dimakan, tidak boleh dijadikan tumbuhan perhiasan, memang lalang itu tidak ada kegunaan yang penting! Begitulah kejahatan..

Sampai pada hari penghakiman nanti, malaikat akan mencabut gandum beserta dengan lalang, cuma gandum akan dihantar ke 'barn' (syurga) dan lalang akan dibuang ke tempat pembakaran (neraka). Jadi, marilah kita sekeluarga jangan menjadi seperti lalang tersebut, tetapi menjadi gandumlah kita iaitu percaya kepada Tuhan seratus peratus sehingga dituai.

Apabila kita ke gereja, apakah kita benar-benar ingin bertumbuh atau sekadar menayangkan muka sahaja? Jangan kita menjadi seperti benih yang ditabur ke jalan raya, batu-batu, atau semak duri, tetapi kita haruslah menjadi benih yang ditabur di atas tanah yang subur. Maksudnya, benih itu adalah kita, tanah yang subur adalah firman yang kita dengar dan bila kita renungkan dan lakukan firman itu maka kita akan menjadi 'tumbuhan' yang hebat. 

Semak-semak duri menggambarkan penghimpitan-penghimpitan dunia seperti penyakit, ketakutan terhadap pencerobohan di Lahad Datu dan keadaan kewangan yang tidak stabil. Firman sudah didengar tetapi apabila kekuatiran dunia melanda, segera pula kita berpaling kepada penyelesaian dunia contohnya, apabila sakit, tidak pula berdoa kepada Tuhan untuk disembuhkan sebaliknya pergi ke dukun (dan ingin saya tegaskan bahawa pergi kepada dukun akan menjadikan hidupmu lebih parah lagi, percayalah! Saya sudah membaca banyak kesaksian berkenaan dengan dukun dan alam roh.). Apabila kita mengalami kemerosotan ekonomi, kita berpaling kepada judi-judi seperti bermain nombor untuk kaya cepat dan sebagainya. Apabila terjadi pencerobohan di LD, kita tidak berdoa pula kepada Tuhan agar dilindungi (keluarga dan Sabah) malah mengikut pula nasihat-nasihat orang yang penakut.

Kenapa perlu berpaling kepada dunia bila mengalami masalah-masalah ini? Tidakkah Tuhan itu mampu melakukan sesuatu kepada kita? TUHAN itu lebih besar dari masalah kita, panggil Tuhan, cari kebenaranNya maka akan kita temukan jawapan dan penyelesaian atas segalanya. 

Kesaksian saya ialah, apabila saya menghadapi sesuatu permasalahan di mana saya rasa saya tidak dapat lari daripada masalah tersebut, akhirnya saya berpaling kepada Tuhan, meminta keampunan dan berdoa dari hati yang terdalam "Tuhan, saya tidak sanggup hidup tanpaMu..saya tidak ingin hidup penuh keduniawian lagi.."..dan kamu tahu apa yang Tuhan lakukan? MUKJIZAT! Yes, mukjizat!! Dia menjawab doa saya dengan segala jalan-Nya yang saya tidak pernah fahami. Walaupun jawapan doa itu menyakitkan, akan tetapi saya menikmati berkat yang luar biasa dan kerana itu saya akan terus menyaksikan kebaikan Tuhan kepada kamu semua! :D

Mari, kita datang sunguh-sungguh kepada Tuhan, Dia Allah yang mampu. GOD IS ABLE! Sebab seperti yang tertulis dalam Filipi - Aku dapat melakukan segala perkara di dalam Dia yang memberikan kekuatan kepadaku.

Semoga diberkati!!

-onel =)

Answered Prayer

Today I was praying to God, how should I conduct the sharing at Cell Group tomorrow. I've never conducted any sharing of the word of God at Cell Group, and my first time was at our Family Reunion at our kampung, last year.

Well, God did not directly talk to me, but He answered my prayer through someone whom He truly bless. A man I considered as brother of faith, he talks something that I actually did not ask him, but it answer my prayers.

The first thing I realized is the word "Humble". At first, I was planning to share about this and that about my life to the cell group tomorrow, but then I was struck by this word. I don't need to talk much about my self to make them follow God's words. The bible alone is enough. Talking about what happened in my life that truly change me or challenging in my life is good but too much is overtaking the bible or His words. That was the first thing I learnt tonight.

Next, my call in ministry. I have been praying to God that if He truly calls me in 'full time' ministry..I have just too many worries. I have felt this call eversince I finish SPM (form 5), but I wasn't sure of it. Through the years passed I have felt the calls many times in my life. Until recently (new year 2013) I felt a strong call. Then I prayed to God, if this is what He wanted me to do, I asked for Him this whole year to show it to me.

As I was driving and listening to this brother, some of his word opened the idle question deep inside my brain. Second is the word "Ask". If I truly want the answer, yes I can ask God and let Him show me the way, open the way. He also told me that I must do something also, that got me thinking to prepare spiritually, financially and mentally though I haven't got the confirmation from God.

So there are two things I learnt:

1) Be Humble
2) Ask from God

=)

I Believe in JESUS | Everyday Is A Learning Day

Have you ever heard the phrase "Everyday is a learning day?" I do.

Well, it is true that in our daily life, we learn something, even if it is small, we learn from it.

Yes, today I learn again that what I could do in this world -that is God's command to me-, it is all by His grace, the power that He have given to me, is the source of my strength. In Philipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

I would like to share Ps. Sidney Mohede preach which I fetch from youtube:

What he preached is taken from Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

What I learnt is that, everything that I do in ministry is not by my strength but by His power! I will never have such a great talent if it is not by His grace! I am a man, and yes I know how human thinks in circumstances where people praise me because of my talent, but wait a minute! It is not my portion to take the praise, it is not for human that I lift up my praise and they'll say "wow this kid is good", it is all for GOD, for JESUS alone! All the praise belongs to our Father who art in heaven!

Another point I learnt is that, I must fully commit to God when I do my ministry, because if He have chosen me, then I must lean 100% unto Him, for only He can guide me, only He can give me the power to speak, and even I stand because of Jesus Christ! God is such an inspiration for me, His words are the light unto my path. Thank You Jesus!

Have a blessed day! =)

Pekerjaan Tuhan yang luar biasa | The Mighty Works of GOD.

Pekerjaan TUHAN yang Luar Biasa

Pada pagi ini, saya sedang memandu ketika saya merasakan suatu berkat yang luar biasa bagi saya. Dengan berkat itu, timbul satu sukacita dan terlintas di fikiran dan hati saya untuk mengucap syukur. Saya mengucap syukur di dalam kereta tersebut sambil mengingatkan semula bagaimana Tuhan Yesus membuka jalan kepada saya untuk keluar dari permasalahan atau pergumulan saya.

Tuhan Yesus sangat luar biasa! Ia bahkan telah memilih kita sejak dari awalnya untuk dipakai-Nya bagi kemuliaan-Nya. Tuhan, Engkau sudah memilihku, dan ini aku siap untuk dipakai Engkau, Tuhan. Tanpa saya sedari di masa-masa lalu, saya pada mulanya mempelajari gitar dari sepupu saya, akhirnya ayah saya membelikan saya sebuah gitar. Panggilan Tuhan kepada saya adalah dalam pelayanan musik, dan sehingga pada masa kini, Tuhan sentiasa memanggil saya untuk melayani dalam pelayanan musik, terima kasih Tuhan Yesus!!

Saya ada beberapa kali mengelak untuk bermain musik kerana saya merasakan bahawa saya sudah tidak layak untuk melayani Tuhan dalam bidang tersebut. Tetapi Tuhan sentiasa mengasihi saya dan melihat saya berharga di mata-Nya. Apa yang terjadi, sentiasa ada halangan bagi saya untuk mengelak. Seolah-olah Bapa di syurga tidak membenarkan saya untuk keluar daripada pelayanan ini. Bila saya mengimbas kembali, saya sudah menyakitkan hati Bapa di syurga. Bapa, ampuni saya!.

Seiring berjalannya arus kehidupan saya, saya melalui beberapa perkara yang membuka mata saya, yang membuat saya harus bergumul dengan penuh penyesalan, akan tetapi saya menemukan satu Kasih yang terbesar, jawapan ke atas doa-doa dan pergumulan saya. Tuhan Yesus, Bapa yang disyurga telah memberikan saya jalan keluar, memberi saya kedamaian dan mengampuni saya! Tuhan adalah kemenanganku!

Tuhan seringkali berbicara kepada saya untuk mengelak daripada berbuat dosa, namun saya seringkali tidak memperdulikan bisikan Roh Kudus. Semakin saya ditegur, semakin pula saya terbuai arus keduniawian. Sehingga pada suatu saat, dalam keadaan roh ku yang sangat lemah, dan jiwa yang akhirnya berserah kepada Tuhan, Roh Kudus sama sekali tidak meninggalkan saya, tetapi Dia mengangkat saya dan memberi kelegaan sepenuhnya!

Berbalik kepada cerita permulaan di atas, saya mengimbas kembali bagaimana saya dipertemukan kepada rakan-rakan sepelayanan sekarang ini yang benar-benar meletakkan iman dan pengharapan mereka kepada Tuhan. Ini adalah pertama kalinya saya dikuatkan melalui pelayanan mereka, dan saya sangat bersyukur kerana saya dapat bersama-sama dengan mereka, di dalam doa, di dalam kesesakan, di dalam peperangan roh, dan dalam pelayanan mimbar. Saya percaya bahawa jalan yang saya lalui ini adalah rencana Tuhan yang paling indah dalam hidup saya! 

Bercakap tentang keduniawian, sungguh nyata bahawa firman Tuhan di dalam "1 Korintus 15:33 Janganlah kamu sesat: Pergaulan yang buruk merusakkan kebiasaan yang baik." adalah benar.

Betapa saya dikuatkan, bersukacita dan bersyukur kerana Tuhan sudah menyelamatkan saya melalui penyerahan saya. Amin!

The Mighty Works of GOD

This morning while I was driving, I felt God's blessing poured unto me. I was surrounded by grace and I say my grateful in the car. I remembered how Jesus Christ open a new way for me to be released from this worldly life.

Jesus Christ is amazing! He have chosen me (us all!) from the beginning. God, You have chosen me, and I am ready for you! Without realizing all these in the old me, I first learnt how to play a guitar from my cousin then my father bought me an acoustic guitar. God's call for me was in music ministry, and now God will always call me for that particular ministry, thank you Lord Jesus!

In the old me, I tried to avoid music ministry given to me because I think I am not worthed anymore, but He does not think like so, He loved me. There will always be a way for me to join the music ministry, regardless how I am avoiding it. The Father in heaven never want me to give up the ministry, Father, forgive my sin!

From time to time, I walk through various challenges that opened my eyes. It makes me to struggle in life, but I found the beauty of His Love, whom answers my prayers. Lord Jesus, Father who art in heaven have given me a way out, giving me eternal peace and forgive my sin! God is my victory!

God always whisper to me to repent from sins, but I always ignore the Holy Spirit. One time, when my spirit is devastated, and I surrender my soul, the Holy Spirit never leaves me, but He lift me up and give total satisfaction!

Going back to the first story, I recalls how I met my ministry team who surrender their faith and hope totally to God. This is the first team I met who strengthen my soul through their ministry and I am most grateful because I am with them in prayer, in hard time and in spiritual warfare and ministry. I am totally believe that God have prepared this beautiful way for me in my life!

It is so visibly and sharply true in bible verse 1 Chorintians 15:33 Be not deceived: evil communicationsa corrupt good manners.

I am strengthen, full of joy and thankful to God because He have saved me through my deliverance. Amen!

Eating Healthy Foods

Yeah, I am on diet though that is not my year 2013 determination.

My 2013 Determination are to pray harder and spend 80% doing ministry, God give me strength :)

Alright, back to the above topic -Eating Healthy Foods-, hm..I'm not an expert but through research I found that these food I'm eating is good for me! Ha! (I eat them before I do research, hmm..yeah..)

But.....before that, most people would use the word 'diet' to describe 'fasting' and that is not a healthy way of life. 'Fasting' or not eating anything at all only sickening your body. Healthy diet means, we eat food that is healthy and contain nutrients needed by our body.

My first diet is:

1. Honey
Honey can prevent  cancer and heart disease. How? Honey contain flavonoids, antioxidants which help to reduce the risk of some cancers and heart disease.
There are other health benefits such as to reduce ulcers and gastrointestinal disorders, anti bacterial, anti-fungal, increase athletic performance and reduce throat irritation and cough.
What's even surprise me is that two table spoon of honey before sleep can help me burn fat faster than workout!!

Secondly..
2. Boiled egg
I was wandering at the store and suddenly my brain tells me to buy eggs. So I bought a pax of eggs and boiled two eggs and eat them for breakfast (or lunch) since I don't do breakfast sometimes.
Egg contains 12% protein which explain why bodybuilder eat them a lot! (I guess I don't have to explain that).
The egg yolk also good for brain function since they contain choline. It is a nutrient that regulates the brain, nervous system and cardiovascular health.
Somehow, I can't eat more than two boiled eggs with the yolk if I don't want to rise up my cholesterol, you got the point.

I hope this would be the third,
3. Sweet potatoes.
I remember back at Kampung my grandmother will steam a sweet potatoes and I would rather eat them than the rice. It is sweet and delicious!!
Sweet potatoes are known as a vegetable (yeah, I thought it was a fruit too! haha) which packed with carotene and vitamin A. One serving of a sweet potatoes will provides more than 23 cups of broccoli! Yeah!
Also high in fiber makes sweet potatoes to be significantly reduces the risk of constipation thereby lowering risk of disorders such as diverticulitis and colon-related problems and found very effective in helping to fight obesity.

By eating these things daily, I am able to eat some pork in the weekend..or icecream...

OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN KNOW THE BEST FOR ME!

Shallom!

Hi everyone..just feeling like I want to share something right now, and it is about "The Best For Us".

I was just sitting in the office watching some 'bassist' on youtube when this gratitude came to my mind.

The story goes like this..

Back in the 2005~2006, I was hoping that my dad would buy me a bass guitar. On 2008, I almost buy a 4 strings bass guitar from Victory Music, KK. But, I did not buy it since I barely have enough money for my self.

But in year 2009, when I was doing my industrial training, it was Muslim's fasting month and also fast and praying for a guitar bass. What happened is that, I got my very first bass guitar on 2009. THANK YOU LORD!!

But now (2013), I just realized that, the bass guitar I have now is the best I have! Well, talking about my skills, that bass guitar is just the right instrument for me. Talking about playability and sound, well that depends mostly on the amp. Thank GOD that our church now (SIB Bandar Labuan) bought (technically bought first by our 'Ketua PMM') an AMPEG Amp, the best bass amp I've ever used! oh man..THANK YOU LORD!!!

So, talking about our Father in heaven know the best..YES HE KNOWS!!! He even set up a very good plan for me, for us. What we have to do is to stay in HIS path. I can't imagine how our GOD do HIS works but I know that HE always know the best for us! YES HE IS!!

Right at this moment, I want to say my gratitude to the Lord in heaven, I praise Him for all the things He have done in my life, Lord Jesus, you are the best!!!

Amen. =)

Witness of GOD's Grace 2013

This is the extended and translated version of my article "Kesaksian 2013".

I believe everything that happened around me has been God's work unto me, for Jesus Christ love is poured unto me. Regardless the condition of an event, I believe that all are to prepare me throughout my life journey in faith. It is all by Jesus Christ grace!

1st: The Ticket
God's working hands has this event happened from the beginning of 22nd December 2012 but I yet to find out. It all started when my colleague asked me to help him to ask whether there are available transportation ticket from Menumbok to Labuan on the 1st January 2013. I just replied him "Sure, why not?".

The 22nd December 2012 then arrived and I will be 'sailing' to Menumbok from Labuan. The ferry was delayed and I reached Sabah at around 5pm. I drove through the ticket counter because I felt like I am too lazy to ask on behalf of my colleague. But then a little desire to help makes me to stop and I go ask for the ticket. Turn out that there are no available ticket on the 1st January 2013 but on 3rd. I then call my colleague to inform him.

9 days I was on leave and I have to go back to Labuan. Upon my arrival at Menumbok, I checked my ticket and I was quite surprised that I still need to pay RM14 for arrival / 'landing' fee. I looked in my wallet and there was RM3 left because I already used my RM35 which RM20 I asked from my father for breakfast and gas. But God's grace is amazing! His way is beautiful! Turn out that my colleague was departing on the same date as me and I call him and get to borrow him some money to pay the fee, Praise The Lord!

2nd: Fuel
Last week, I have been trying my best to save for food and car fuel. My car fuel is only one bar left and that gives me about two days to go and back from work. I am saving to go to church for reheasel and Sunday service.

However, I believe that God won't leave me alone. I have faith that God will do something about it. Then on the 11th January 2013, one of our admin clerk need my help to send her to town. At first I am looking for any available company's car or van but there are none. Then the clerk asked to use my car. Upon that request I tell her the truth that I was running out of fuel. What happened is that she gladly will pay for my fuel! and she is a Muslim. She will be blessed! I was so thankful to the Lord that His way is through just anyone, anything and anytime! Amen!

3rd: Hungry
On the 12th January 2013 after work, I go to the Labuan Botanical Garden to relax while listening to gospel song. That day, I haven't eaten any rice and only the cake from my company's freezer. It's not that I don't want to buy rice but I am saving until 15th January comes. I am really hungry that moment, but with smile I pray to Jesus to sweep away my hungriness.

Thanks to the Lord on His highest throne, half hour later one of my friend from UMS called me to join their UMS Christian Student Fellowship. At first I was quite shy but I can't resist it. I just go for it and I was blessed with the food and their fellowship.

****HOPE****FAITH****LOVE****

God's help has never too late, He is always there and listens to our prayer. It is our duty to call Him and pray to Him without intentional selfishness. God will always help those who call out for Him!

Philipians 4:19 - But my God shall supply all you need according to His riches in glory by Jesus Christ.

Now unto God and our Father be glory for ever and ever! Amen.

Kesaksian 2013

Shallom!!

Selamat pagi (pada waktu saya sedang menyediakan artikel ini..hehe).

Pada kali ini saya ingin menyaksikan kebaikan Tuhan yang telah Dia sediakan bagi saya bermulanya tahun yang baru 2013 ini.

Setiap apa yang telah berlaku saya percaya penuh bahawa Tuhan Yesus yang sudah menyediakan bagi saya, tidak kira itu masalah untuk mengajar saya ataupun berkat kebaikan yang Tuhan Yesus turunkan ke atas saya, semuanya adalah kerana kasih Tuhan Yesus!

Kesaksian pertama saya bermula pada 22 Disember 2012 sebenarnya, cuma pada waktu itu saya belum mengetahuinya. Seorang rakan sekerja saya meminta pertolongan saya untuk menanyakan tiket feri dari Menumbok ke Labuan untuk 1 Januari 2013. Pada waktu dia bertanyakan jika saya boleh membantu dia dalam hal itu, saya hanya menjawab "Ok, boleh..tiada masalah". Sesudah tiba 22 Disember 2012, saya akhirnya akan belayar ke Menumbok dari Labuan. Pelayaran agak lewat disebabkan kenderaan yang sepatutnya menaiki feri Wawasan yang besar tidak datang awal. Saya tiba di Menumbok dalam pukul 5 petang. Pada saat saya memandu keluar dari feri, saya terfikir untuk jalan terus sebab sudah lewat. Namun hati saya berat untuk memandu terus lalu saya berhenti berdekatan dengan simpang ke jalan besar. Saya berjalan agak jauh ke kaunter tiket lalu menanyakan jika masih ada kosong pada 1 Januari 2013. Lalu di kaunter itu menjawab hanya pada 3 Januari 2013 sahaja yang masih ada kosong.

Dipendekkan cerita, selama 9 hari saya bercuti akhirnya saya perlu kembali ke Labuan. Sesampainya saya di Menumbok untuk menunggu feri, saya menyedari bahawa saya belum membayar yuran pendaratan sebanyak RM14. Saya membuka dompet saya dan ternyata di dalam hanya tinggl RM3 kerana wang yang saya bawa dari Ranau suda saya gunakan untuk sarapan dan membeli minyak kereta. Saya membuka kompartmen dan menjumpai RM1, semuanya baru RM4. Lalu apa yang terjadi, saya beriman jika saya melepasi kastam, saya akan tunjukkan dompet saya dan biarkan Tuhan bekerja. Namun kasih Tuhan, pertolongan Tuhan itu luar biasa. Pada hari yang sama juga, rakan sekerja saya yang meminta pertolongan saya untuk bertanya tiket itu belayar pada hari yang sama dengan saya. Saya menelefon dia dan akhirnya saya dapat meminjam wang daripada dia. Rupanya Tuhan sudah sediakan jalan bagi saya berhari-hari sebelum itu. Puji Tuhan!


Kesaksian kedua saya berkaitan dengan kereta saya. Pendekkan cerita, kereta saya hanya mempunyai satu bar minyak sahaja lagi minggu lalu. Sebelum saya mengenal iman dengan setulusnya, saya pasti risau, saya pasti kuatir akan hal yang melibatkan wang untuk membeli minyak kenderaan. Apa yang terjadi, saya beriman pasti Tuhan akan sediakan sesuatu untuk saya pada minggu itu. Lalu pada hari Jumaat tanggal 11 Januari 2013, seorang kerani dari syarikat tempat saya bekerja ingin meminta hantar ke bandar Labuan. Pada waktu itu saya tercari-cari kenderaan syarikat namun tiada satu pun yang saya boleh gunakan, ada van tetapi kuncinya tiada dan orang yang memegang kunci van tidak menjawab telefon. Lalu kerani itu menyuruh saya menggunakan kereta saya dan saya berterus terang kepada dia bahawa minyak kereta saya sudah tinggal sedikit dan puji Tuhan kerani itu menyatakan untuk membelikan minyak untuk saya,..haha..Haleluya!

Kesaksian ketiga, pada tanggal 12 Januari 2013, selepas habis waktu bekerja saya pergi ke Taman Botanikal Labuan untuk berehat sementara menunggu waktu latihan. Pada hari itu saya belum lagi makan nasi sebab saya perlu menjimatkan wang sejimat-jimatnya dan hanya memakan kek yang disimpan dalam peti sejuk syarikat. Semasa berada di taman itu, saya hanya duduk dalam kereta sambil mendengarkan lagu rohani. Pada waktu itu saya agak lapar, dan dengan senyuman saya berdoa kepada Tuhan agar lapar itu 'dilimpaskan' dari perut saya. Kuasa Tuhan itu sempurna, ajaib sungguh. Dalam setengah jam rakan saya dari UMS Labuan menelefon dan menyuruh saya untuk menyertai mereka di gathering Persatuan Pelajar Kristian UMS di Pantai Labuan. Pada mulanya saya agak segan akan tetapi saya ingin membiasakan diri bersama mereka, dan puji Tuhan juga saya dapat makan bersama mereka.

Pertolongan Tuhan tidak pernah terlambat. Kasih Yesus begitu sempurna bagi mereka yang memerlukan pertolongan Dia. Yesus tidak pernah membiarkan kita begitu sahaja, Dia sentiasa menyertai kita. Cuma kita perlu berseru meminta pertolongan kepanya-Nya, berdoa tanpa rasa pentingkan diri sendiri.

Filipi 4:19 - Allahku akan memenuhi segala keperluanmu menurut kekayaan dan kemuliaan-Nya dalam Kristus Yesus.

Dimuliakanlah Allah dan Bapa kita selama-lamanya! Amin.

Who I was before, who I am now.

Hello!

Today I felt like I wanted to share about myself.

Through past years I have been keeping a photos and videos for "future references". I like to kept things from past so that when I found or see it in the future, I would like "heeyyy....I still have this thing??" haha..

One document (actually there are a lot of it but I haven't go through while I was at kampung..so..) I recently copied to my hard disk is a video of our family 'vacation' to Pekan Nabalu.

When I watch every scene I talk, I get mad at myself. I got myself thinking "Is this who I am?? Why am I so angry all the time I spoke???" Haha..I must admit that I am (was) a hot-tempered person.

That was the past, now that I have found Jesus Christ's Love, I try and learn how to speak with love, respect all person, young or old. Love them and show the love that Christ has given to me.

I must also admit that I have just recently found the greatest peace in Christ the Lord, despite the years I have fulfill my ministry as Gospel Musician and involved in many church activities. Most of the times, I wasn't focus for God..I steal the glory that only our God can have. No wonder I felt empty after great musical experience. I came back with zero blessings.

After the change, I want to focus to the very important point; Every bad doing I still tied to is released, there is nothing can compare to the LOVE of Christ when I decided to give my whole life to Him. How I long for His presence all the time.

One's to change is not easy -with self strength- but very easy when we prayed for Jesus' help. We prayed that only Jesus can give us a complete freedom..and once we have decided to get up and only seek His face, never compromise with sin, ever again!

These changes made my whole life complete. I am alive!!

Jesus Saved Me!!

Music Theory #2

Haha..Welcome back!

Today, because of my curiosity, I've learnt a basic knowledge of what's chord is it on each staff and between the staff and on the ledger. Here I have drawn something to help me memorize each chords on the line. Shall we take a look?

Yes, here is it, my first drawing after my lesson:

Okay, this one is with the wordings so that I can remember the chords easily. Notice that in the treble clef, the chords between each staff are F.A.C.E and the chords on the staff are Every Good Boy Deserve Fridge (which doesn't make it a words anyway). But it is a good way to memorize the Chords anyway.

Then on the bass clef, the chords between staff are All Cows Eat Grass and on the staff are Green Birds Don't Fly Away.

If you also notice that there are a chords between the treble and bass clef, that is B,C and D. I don't get it at first either. Then I draw again with better drawing:

Okay, with better drawing I noticed that the chords run from treble clef to bass clef are like A B C D E F G | A B C D E F G. Take a look by yourself..I know right?! Amazing..Haha..Visually, if I read the chords from the bass clef to treble clef I'll get like G A B C D E F G A <bass clef> | B C D | <treble clef> E F G A B C D E F

Also, the chords on treble clef upper ledger is read A C E while on bass clef bottom ledger is read E C A.

I hope you enjoy this lesson..hahaa..

The 4th of November 2012

The 4th of November 2012
 
...I believe GOD have plan for me. I know through this HE meant to tell me something. 

...The End...is just the beginning.

Work Again. =)

Pheww..I have been neglected my blog for......3 months now? Whoa..that was a long time, but now it seems short because of my bustle. Well now I am here to post something about work, again. Hehe..Nahh, I'm sure it's not that boring, if you're interested..LOL..


Okay now, I've been at Labuan for a week. For the past one week, I have been to HSE Commitee Meeting, writing letter to Department of Environment Labuan

as well to JKKP Putrajaya

and today I wrote a letter to BOMBA requiring them to hold a Basic Fire Fighting / Fire Safety talk at our premise.

 

Basically what I do is to require DOE and DOSH to approve our sand blasting room. The BOMBA, I already stated up there. 

Now that I have completed these task, my job now is to wait for DOE approval and then conduct CHRA, noise mapping, write to DOE again for approval of using used garnet as concrete slab and continue to keep recording the used chemical.

I think, that will slowly comes afterward, now.. memecenter! LOL

Bye. (^_^)v Peace

Kerja

Wohooo!!!! Banyak kerja saya!! Boring!!!! Stress!!! Aiseh, biasalah, first time kerja memang terasa kerja sangat2 banyak dan berat..sebab belum tahu buat kan..

Walaubagaimanapun, pengalaman kerja yang pertama adalah pengalaman yang sukar dicari, nanti sudah veteran, boleh jg cerita2 dgn budak2 baru..haha..masa di sekolah, atau kursus, saya pasti banyak kali kena cakap "oh kamu belajar tinggi2 spy dpt kerja yg bagus", "lpas kursus kompom dpt kerja!"..chehhh..siapa bilang senang..haha..

Apapun, mksud saya sini ialah, mencari kerja memerlukan kesungguhan..kadang2 lucky lah, macam saya..hehehe....tapi first time saya masuk kerja, mcm...pow!!!! bertan2 batu d belakang. Sudahlah tidak tahu buat, mahu belajar itu ini lagi..phewww...banyak lah, memang bikin stress jugalah..tapi, byk jg saya belajar..

Jadi, kasi pendek cerita, janganlah kita putus asa sebab kita merasakan kita tidak dapat buat sesuatu kerja yang baru 5% kita buat..(apa bah sa cakap ni??),, sa pun bingung2 sudah..hahaha...pandai2 lah kio!!

Good Day!! =)

GOD, WORK & SUCCESS

Today is my 4th week working, next two days are my full month in HSAP SDN. BHD. as a Document Controller and Safety Supervisor.

You know, I get hard time to do these two jobs at the same time. I almost surrender. It wasn't easy for my level. Then I complain to my loved one, Milhayane, that I felt so down I almost can't take it. But then she gave me this words;

"Do you remember Nick Vujicic? He can do almost everything. Why can't you?"

Nick's wedding day with his wife Kanae Miyahara

She got me thinking though. Yes, she was right. She got the point. Then she added;

"Jesus is there, you must pray harder and harder."

I feel light afterwards. I'm motivated. But yet, my job is still hard. Well, this is how most people felt when they're going through first time experience in their so-called "GOOD CARRIER".

Then I think to my self again, success is not something we can reach without ups and downs. Success is something we can poses after we win the battle against our barrier, the obstacles. Outside there, is not very much like what we've encountered or imagined in school. There are more aggressive people, hard headed people and 'thaichi' people, by the mean 'thaichi' is someone who would release his fault to another person.

Well, the world is cruel they said. But to me, the human are the cruelest, not the world.

So far, I just stay calm and relaxed. May GOD be with me. Amen.

Good Day =)

Second Day

17^th April 2012

I woke up as early as 6.00 am today. That’s because I can’t stay asleep anymore since I slept on about 8.30/9.00 pm last night. Well, in an air-conditioned room, who would not fall asleep fast right?..ahaa..

So today there are quite many tasks I’ve done. Somehow, it’s not that hard or heavy task at all, yet not that much. I’ve been helping buying some foods and goods with the Boss, Mr. Francis and David using the company car; CYGNUS..hahaha..kebaruan naik Cygnus…

At Papar, the boss invited us to go to eat breakfast at a chinese restaurant. There I ordered a meehun sup mixed pork meat while my boss ordered dim sum (a lot of dim sum), such a huge breakfast. I got so full that I almost threw up LOL. Then we go buy things lah..

I was taken to go inside the site by David, although I haven’t been to safety induction, so I just stay calm, meaning tapuk2 lahh..haha..But we passed the gate. Rules on site are;

1.       Wear overhead protection (safety helmet).

2.       Safety Glasses.

3.       Long-sleeve shirt or coverall.

4.       Dust protection mask.

5.       Must be safety briefed (safety induction).

6.       Must be a sub-con/main-con personnel (contractor).

7.       Vehicle speed limits 20 km/h.

8.       Stop at the gate for security inspection (in or out).

9.       In and out card scan for supervisor and general worker.

10.   Always think safety.

While I was there, there are not much task I can do since I haven’t introduced about what to do (yet). I helped David to prepare the ‘In and out’ tag for workers or personnel in HSAP for headcount purpose. AND THAT IS THE FIRST TIME I USED THE LAMINATING MACHINE…..which is, COOL MAN!!!..I mean, the device is producing heat to laminate the paper (we bought a special laminating plastic lah for this,,) inside the laminating card, and it’s so new for me..ahaa..well, the device is worth RM3xx.00..it can fit A3 laminating.

At three, I have Safety Interview at the Site Main Office by John See, Health, Safety & Environment Manager (HSE Manager) –While waiting for him, SHO Vincent make a joke about the Korean name “OH, In Tae” the Safety Deputy. Then at the interview I was asked about my experience, if I got the Yellowbook and then he explained that my experience is not enough so he put me into ‘Safety Promoter’ which I do not know what is it about. Perhaps, the one that Go to site to site to tell about safety..it’s a little bit like SHO but without the report to make. This position kinda’ funny to me. But it’s okay it’s alright.

See, the world we live is not that easy as we think. To start another level “We must begin again from zero in that level” – Sidney Mohede. As for me, to be Site Safety Supervisor in Oil & Gas Business, I need at least 5 years experiences as SSS. To be a SHO, need another 5, in total 10 years (at least). To put it easily, let me make a timeline for being Oil & Gas SHO.

1.       Safety Promoter. 1-3 years.

2.       Site Safety Supervisor Assistant. 4 - 5

3.       Site Safety Supervisor. 5 - 10

4.       Safety Officer Assistant.* 10 - 15

5.       Safety Officer.* 15 - 20

6.       Safety & Health Officer Assistant. 20 - 22  

7.       Safety & Health Officer. 22 - 25

8.       Health, Safety & Environment Officer Assistant. 25 - 26

9.       Health, Safety & Environment Officer. 26 - 27

10.   Health, Safety & Environment Manager Assistant. 27 - 28

11.   Health, Safety & Environment Deputy. 28 - 30

12.   Health, Safety & Environment Manager. 30

** Just anggaran..hahaha..but it’s true that to get the SHO title is not easy as what they said in the safety class. 

I think that’s my advice for today. Bye.. =)

1st Day on HSAP

Today is 16^th April 2012. This day is my first time working at a bigger company; Oil & Gas based company, HSAP.

When I first arrived here at their yard to report in – I arrived at 11 am – my will-be mentor ‘David’ or real name Mojimis Gontirik told me to wait. At about 11.50 am, Mr. Jalil (or ‘second boss’) arrived and invited me inside the yard hostel. He talked about why they put me in Admin/Document Control position for three months’ probation. For the time being I will be with David to learn about DC works because David is leaving the company at the end of this month or 30^th April 2012.

Mr. Jalil also explained to me that I am not necessarily in the Admin only as I applied for SSS (Site Safety Supervisor) position; hence I will be also learning the Safety & Health works through time to time.

My first task today are following David to buy stationeries and evening rest food for the workers at the site and who works at the yard. Then at the yard I prepared their orange drink. After evening rest (3.45 pm) they all continue their work and I left in the hostel alone. I started to tidy up the place and sweep the floor (well, sound like ‘amah’ right?) as that is what I do in admin in general.

About the salary, I asked about RM1800 for basic and Mr. Jalil said; “The amount you stated is the amount we will pay you.” So I am relieved but of course they have the right to decrease or kick me out from the company if they’re not impressed with me or in the other words, I am poor in my job performance.

I have about 15 days to learn EVERYTHING that David knows. Which mean, if I failed in any task, I am in great danger, so do David’s company testimony. This could also mean, David will have hard time to pursue his dream in Business field.

So far in my 7 hours new job, I am doing light work. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow but I’m sure that GOD will always arrange a good thing for me. I’ll do my best. Thank You Lord Jesus for everything and God Bless to anyone reading this. Have A Nice Day =)

Troll #5 - Bos Penipu

True Story.

The Year 2004

Yeah, when I look back in year 2004, I could hardly remember everything that happened. Except...that is the first year I tried to play bass.
What I do remember is that, it was near the year end and I was trying to play some notes on the church bass -the Santa Cruz 5 string bass-.
That time, I was told to stop to play the bass because I can't play it right at all! Haha! But since then, I tried hard to learn the notes on the bass.

My first learnt intsrument is acoustic guitar. At a Kids' Sunday School, my cousin taught my the A minor, C major, F major, G major in root C. Of course I don't even know the chords then. I was 10 year-old that time. Two years later, my father brought me to Kota Kinabalu (which is my first time to set foot to KK) at Victory Music at Kampung Air (The music shop is still there until now). My father bought my my first black acoustic guitar. Black? Did I said black? I should've chose the wooden-color..haha..but it's okay..I learnt some other chords from my senior and my dad also did give me a lesson for 3 chords.

However, as I grew up, I didn't have much lesson which lead me to my boredom. I don't know to play certain chords, I always hit the wrong chords and all short of mistakes. I didn't stop immediately though. In 2004, my father told me to learn to play all the instruments. So I do. I learnt to play the bass guitar. There's so many things I need to learn, even up until now. But before 2008, I've been played the bass in Youth Conference, church events and inter-church events. What I remember is that, bad bass sound doesn't bother me, yet.

In the 2004-2007 period, I actually learnt to play the drum, and keyboard. As far as I remember, I started to play the drum and keyboard in late 2006. I firstly learnt G major root chords on the keyboard..until now, I think-nope-I NEED to learn some more roots.

As in 2008-2011, I grew a lot in playing the bass. I study how to set up a good bass sound, which I never satisfied until present. I learn to play some group chords, slap (well slapping hurts me the first time I tried to). But in the period of 2008-2009, I don't have my own bass. So I will borrow my friend's bass guitar (The Ibanez GIO - with hard strings!). But my life as a bassist changed forever when my dad agreed to buy me a bass guitar (I waited about 5 years) in late 2009. There, my first wooden-body Ibanez SDGR SRX355 bass guitar. I was so excited to have my first bass guitar.

Then, a sad story happened in new year 2010. When I was trying to get the bass out from it's bag, I accidentally lift it up high and......the ceiling fan hit its head! OUCH!!! I was moody, sad..I felt like..I don't know how to describe. But soon after, I develop my acceptance that what happened cannot be undo. Well, it doesn't affect my bass guitar sound anyhow. I accept it as GOD punishment because I did not say thank you to the LORD nor saying my gratitude to GOD because if not by HIS grace, I would not have my bass guitar.

2 weeks before I got my bass guitar, I was in Ladang Mills Sdn. Bhd. doing my industrial training. I fasted for two weeks and pray that I would have my very own bass guitar, and I did! Thank YOU LORD JESUS! Now, I'm happy and I learnt so many bass things since I got my own bass guitar. However, there are still too many things I need to learn. There are so many scales, chords, techniques, rigs I need to know before I could call my self, a good bassist.

That is my story of how I began to play the bass guitar. Thank You for reading.